So many things start with a dream. In mine, I was trapped in a giant egg floating in space. (I'm going to go a little New Age here so you may want to leave while you still can.) I wanted nothing more than to break through the shell and be free, but no matter how I beat or kicked on the inside shell, not so much as a crack appeared on the smooth surface. I needed to realize that I wasn't ready. The Universe unfolds on its time schedule, not yours.
Lately, I've been feeling like I keep circling back, around and around, walking the same path, starting to feel a little frustrated and trapped, just like in my dream. I don't feel like I'm moving forward, but as my dream tried to show me, that isn't necessarily a bad thing. It may be that I'm not ready. It may be that I am spending too much time focusing on maybes and potentials. I am forgetting now. It's not yet time to hatch.
At one time in my life, I felt weighed down, crushed under the pains of the past, and then I read "Change Your Story, Change Your Life". (Again: spiritual, touchy, feely, New Age stuff. Flee if you must.) I went through the steps, exploring every pain and unhappiness of my past, and eventually making my peace with it. I will always be a product of my past, but I don't have to let it define me. I chose to take that power back.
I forget those lessons sometimes, and the Universe has to kick me, harder than I may like. I can't rush the future. I can't force events to happen no matter how I flail and kick and stomp. I can't crack an uncooperative egg. All that impatience and frustration does is make me miserable, just like dwelling on the past once made me unhappy.
Life needs to be about the moment, savoring what you have right here, right now. I need to let go of my ego and just enjoy the ride. After all, it's not every day you get a free trip through space.
