"Learning to operate a soul figures to take time" - Timothy Leary
I went into the weekend feeling stressed and anxious, very much the flipped coin in midair, the cat in mid jump who isn't certain where she will land.
Saturday morning, we took a day trip out to Gryphon's Nest to take part in Harvest Moon Fest. An amazing sound bath, a guided meditation, and hours of soaking up the ambiance of Gryphon's Nest, and I felt a thousand times better. The stress and anxiety melted away. I opened myself to accepting that I cannot change others if they don't want to change.
If I've done wrong, I need to acknowledge it and accept responsibility for it. If others have done me wrong, holding on to anger against them punishes me more than it does them. I just have to let it go.
I don't know if its the energy of Gryphon's Nest that always works such a change in me or if its the amazing people that I meet there.
The Three of Pentacles reminds us that we achieve greatness by working together for a common cause. Many minds can create amazing things. I want to be better. I want to go deeper. Being around others with those same desires enhances my own work; it deepens; it teaches me more.
I am still the cat in midair. I am still the coin in mid flip, but I don't need to be frightened of this truth. One of my favorite people related a little something about quantum math and magic. While the coin is still mid flip, it is both tails and heads.
It's Schrodinger's Cat without the death sentence. All things are possible. All outcomes are equally likely. We are at a crossroads: floating, flying, evolving, still learning how to operate our souls.